ikutoxmaria

This account is full of bad memories, and broken dreams. I need to get my life back in order before I can start anything else. A fresh start sounds really nice right now, but I have to fix my problemes before I can do that. I would like to proudly say that I have now been clean for about two months, not very long but it's a start. I'm starting to feel like me again, if that even makes any sense.  Things are starting to look up for me, I'm still somewhat sad about Jess. We were going to go to homecoming with eachother but now we can't even do that. Time heals wounds but Jess you left a scar on me. I'm doing better Jess, let me live out the spi

As you know the other day was my first day of High School. I found myself wandering the hall's looking for you, and you only. I then remembered you had left me to be in a better place. Sometimes you make me wonder if you are better off alone. I want to see you smile, and see the light in those eyes. If I had one more wish it would be to allow me to say "I love you." And here you respond "I love you and everything is going to be alright." Jess, you left me in this hell hole to suffer all alone.  I don't know what to do anymore. I am slowly going insane, I can feel it in my blood.  Jess, why did you do this I don't know how to feel anymore. Bec

Dear jess, First off I wanted to say how much I will miss you, now let me ramble on about us. Well, you were never the boy next door, you were always my tranny next door. Whenever my mom asked me if I wanted to do something, it was never "just Maria". It was always Maria and Jess. You were my best friend Jess. I remember the first day I meet you utterly confused I asked "what gender are you?, Your amazing response was "it." From that moment on, I know we were going to be friends. Jess I remember when there was a tornado, and we were alone, I walked over to your house, and we played in your basement until my mom came home. Jess, I can't beli